Notebook 030

For An Unrequited pt. II (An Ending For Now Beth)
Journal Entry: Sat Apr 16, 2005, 1:33 PM

You're so sick and so shallow.
So much more permiable than I thought.
What I thought was yuor glow is your consumption.
All along you were laughing at me.

Somehow I cant take it
Somehow its not real
All the things you've abandoned
All the emotions that I feel

You know I love you in some sick way, I hate to love you
But somewhere, someway, I still do

Right now, its not so vividly slapped across me as later im sure it will be.
Dragging heels and digging up dirt.

At least when falling i can know.

I. Made. The. First. Blow